I Hate Myself

Cali Kittana

There's too many things I hate about myself

Listing them all would be quite tiring

From things I've noticed to things others did

How they'd tell me in such blunt ways

 

I hate my eyes first of all

The dark brown colour so dull and lifeless

How they never seem fully open

My dark circles taking over

 

I hate my hair as well

Brown is not a good colour on me

The curls never seem to be just right

No matter how long or short it doesn't work

 

Another thing I hate is my voice

It's too high pitched for some

Yet I can make it go too deep all the same

The squeaks that come out in excitement

 

My name has always been filled with hate

This is why I no longer use it anywhere

Unless it's work or family nobody knows it

How could you give me such a bad name

 

My face has also made this cruel list

The way my chin points out too far

How my freckles cover my cheeks and nose

When I can't keep my acne under control

 

I also hate my laugh

Whether it's a soft giggle or not

That horrible cackle that escapes

How annoying I must be to others

 

My legs make me crazy too

Starting with the huge thighs

Leading down to the twisted bones

My overly tight calf muscles

 

This personality I possess is just as bad

Acting different for everyone around

The way I can't seem to find just one

Yet I always hope everyone likes me

 

Don't look to my body for any hope

I hate this whole thing from head to toe

The fat on my stomach makes me sick

Cellulite that could make anyone cringe

 

There's just too many more things I hate

And I know that others hate them too

Yet I keep begging for affection

Hoping someone will adore what I hate

 

  • Author: Cali Kittana (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: December 11th, 2023 19:41
  • Comment from author about the poem: The depression is getting the better of me lately.
  • Category: Unclassified
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  • 2781

    A man's wisdom makes his face to shine, and the boldness of his face shall be changed.

  • Tooway

    I chose a path of solitude, dated yes, but never married, not only scared of what that future might bring. But also I am very sickly and do not want to give these genes to anyone. But even the way I am, I know one thing and this is the hardest thing. You need to love yourself before anyone else can. I feel your pain even though I am a man, always hated my body, my hair, me depressing blue eyes and yes that damn fat. Do what makes you happy and try for little improvements, they always lead to larger success. Whatever you choose, your words will always stay with me.



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