People Saver

Saving him has become my obsession

I want to solve all his problems

and cry all his tears

just to forget about my darkest fears

I fight his battles

while pushing my own to the back of my mind

Every day worrying that it might not be enough

that maybe I can't save him

Without leting go what once was us

But I can't stop

cause what if he needs me

what if one day he can't take it

what if all this ends deadly

As a human being it is my responsibility

making sure that people are okay

showing that you can be a sinking ship's bay

it is just a question of morality

I want to be the first person he comes to

the only one he trusts

the hero in his movie

and that talking to me always feels right

I want him to live

and to fight

No matter if I have to remind him daily that

he has to seek the light

even if the darkness shines so bright.

I want him to love again

not me

cause we were never right

but he has to feel that sparkle in his lonely heart

has to see the passionate glistening in someone else's eyes

Something I could never give him

fixing him was never a question

because I needed the distraction

to forget about the wreck I am

and the mess I made

I broke him

It is my fault that he is struggling

my fault that his ground is shaking

my fault that he only sees his flaws

but never his beauty

my fault that he can't cry anymore

and it is my fault that his heart lost all connection to shore

all of it wouldn't have happened without me

I tore him to pieces

and I'll take care of the bruises

with band aids of happiness

Cause when you burn something

you deal with the ashes

I won't try to fix him

cause I might stop breathing if I fail

I will sacrifice my heart for it

since I might just kill myself otherwise

I will save him

because it is the only way I can win