Stronger

And just like that, another year is almost done,

And, once again, it ended without it being the one.

The one where I thought that it would be different this time around,

But instead, it left me in pieces, broken and torn apart on the ground.

All I wanted, was this for this to be the year where I finally become the person that I had always wanted to be,

And the one where I would be confident and happy, and finally just be okay with just being me.

But instead, I am ending this year in a worse place then I was at the start,

All because I chose to ignore my mind and listen to my heart.

But I am going into this new year with a completely different mindset,

And even though things are not okay, I need to realize that they are not okay yet.

That one day, I will finally be able to be happy and complete,

And I know I need to let go, because I need to admit the fact that there was a reason that me and you had to meet.

You put me back together, you made me smile, and then you slowly watched it all fall piece by piece,

And I need to admit that you destroyed me, and that you are no longer the reason for my peace.

While I tried so hard to be everything for you, you were completely okay with leaving me alone in the dark,

And because of all of the memories, I can't even go back to that park.

The one where we met, and all of the memories were created,

And now, with every day that goes by, I am waiting for them to become faded.

But I know that it will take some time,

To finally let you go from my mind.

If this year has taught me anything, I have learned how strong I am,

Because I found a way to keep going, when I realized that nobody gave a damn.

That I needed to be there for myself because I had no one else to turn to,

And I needed to find a way to feel it all, and find a way to get through.

Now I am going into the new year, ready to leave you behind,

Because I need to accept the fact that you will never actually be mine.

At this point, I want to become the person that I want to be to rub it in your face,

So you can finally feel how I felt, and I can put you in your place.

It is your turn to question your self and worth to fight everyday to see if you are good enough,

And I know that you won't be able to handle it, because it is tough.

To question everyday, and to never know where you stand with somebody that you love,

Especially when they are the only one that you think of.

And when I return, you are not even going to be able to recognize me,

And for the first time in my life, I will finally be able to be free.