Losing my SELF

this time its real

i cannot discern the appeal

nothing distracts my head

not even getting in bed

the words fill up my mind

there isn’t enough time

its all i ponder about

should i stay around?

i do not care for a better life

even if it shows pride

i have no hope for the betterment of a future

i lie to my peers about how i feel

i dont wish to see an appeal

life is useless in of itself

im losing my SELF