I will

I dread what I feel

Unparalleled dreams

That has faded away

Allowing others to take my joy away

Not seeing things as they are

I have created a space

to let my pain

turn into an unhealthy journey

that has led me into sabotaging and self destructing 

My dreams and reality

I have to find my way back

With no guidance and direction

I won't give up on me

Even as time passes

I will be strong courageous and persevere

I have to do this not just for me but to help others as they may be struggling 

With life's lessons.