Why can't I remember?

Another year goes by,

When you are not here.

It's been 10 years,

But sometimes I still find myself in tears.

Why can't I remember?

The golden years we had together....

They tell me stories and show me pictures

Of you and me.

I have made these stories and pictures my own,

To the point where I can't tell,

Whether it is wishful thinking

Or my own memories.

As I stand here shivering,

I feel a phantom hug,

A pat on my head,

Telling me it's okay

I feel comforted.

But there's a niggling feeling,

That maybe it's just wishful thinking,

That I can't remember anything at all,

The stories I have memorized,

Telling them as if they were truly mine,

Maybe they are just wishful thinking.

But wishes don't always come true,

Even when your heart breaks in two.