Dead or Alive

I died but I am not re- born yet

I am still trying to look for

The best way to be living 

If I am born again

Somehow it feels

I will come into this world again

With my own choice

If I choose

Hard to say what to choose

It all seems fascinating

And devastating

I am torn between

Dying and Living

So it all happens at the same time

In these simulations 

But I'll have to make a call

One day

To live or to stay dead

Happy birthday to me

Whenever that would really be.

-Al