IF

I sit in my room all alone

Wondering  why 

Why I feel the way I do

IF I look sad why don´t I feel it

IF I feel mad why don't I look like it

I feel sad, but look mad

I look emotionless every day all day

But I have all sorts of emotions running through me

 So If I show it will they know it??

People say I 'm cold , tell me I have no emotions

They say their scared of me

I don't blame them

I can be scared of myself too

I lay awake in bed crying

crying till I can´t

I walk home pissed 

Pissed at the world

Every time I see people with their parents

I'm jealous cuz they have something I don't

I push it back

Till I can't

I go outside and take a run

I run to a tree 

I sit there to read

If I leave what would happen

If I become a happier person 

What would happen

So IF I disappear who will notice

Who will care