The Whole World And You

Left bittersweet nightshade at your door

Darling, I don't love you anymore 

 

Tricked our carrier pigeons 

I try not to feel bad

Sent them to the graveyard

Better off with the dead

 

Sometimes you don't hold grudges

Sometimes they're tethered to you

Love died but I carry her carcass

Those things you just can't undo

 

I swore you'd never be my consignee again

Dust collecting on letters I wrote on the train

Time, my dear friend, erased my amnesia

I recall now how carefree I felt before 

Before I tripped over those roots of yours

 

And I 

 

Wore a neverending frown 

Clung to the blade in my chest

Left bloodtrails all over town

Who down in hell could have guessed 

 

The pain little me could endure

Nearly choked on the taste of metal

Scrubbed underneath my nails to make sure

This love was too weak to still bedevil

 

Left salty stains 

on my best friend's shoulder 

Flooded the boat

nearly pulled us under

Now I wonder

Did you ever deserve those rosy words 

 

When I called you my deep sea treasure

My know-it-all

Just a kid, how would I know better

I loved to fall 

In love with you, every day 

 

Your name I carved into my heart

Over and over 

And you stared, watched it break apart 

My cells can only renew so fast 

 

Only understood on the way to the cliffs

Wrapped in alice blue silk

That I had bled dry

From hating my body 

And wishing to lie

 

On the steps to your door 

Begging for love

Now I see it clear

There is much more 

I'm worthy of 

 

And sometimes I fucking hate you

For things you didn't mean to do 

Then I remember

We're all trying our best

Me, the whole world, and you