The Love I Deserve

And after everything that happened, I realized I need to say thank you,

Because you helped me so much, despite everything you put me through.

I realized that I will never settle for anything ever again,

Whether that be as a partner, or even just as a friend.

I have finally realize everything that I deserve,

And  I finally have the backbone, and I finally have the nerve.

To finally learn how to be strong on my own and let things go,

And in the past couple months that we haven’t been talking, I have been able to grow.

And sometimes it still hurts, learning that it will never be you and me,

But I have finally realized everything that I can be.

And that I don’t need anyone else’s help to make my dreams come true,

Because I can do it on my own, and I can see things through.

Just like everything else, if it had been me and you, I would have settled,

And the flower needed to fall apart so she could grow new petals.

Some things need to die, in order for something better to bloom, 

And I always had the potential, I just never had the room.

Because I held myself back for so long in order to keep others glad,

While they had no problem walking all over me and making me feel bad.

No one was there for me when I was feeling low,

And I will get there eventually, even if I take it slow.

That is part of my journey, and I am no longer going to worry about how long it takes,

Because a part of the process was all of my flaws and mistakes.

And I am where I am know, and I needed to go through it,

Because it was all helping me get to this point, even though at the time, it felt like I was taking a 

hit.

And I needed you to hurt me so I could see what I am capable of,

And I deserve so much more, especially when it comes to love.

With everyday that I am trying, things are getting better and I am getting stronger,

And I am so close, and it won’t take me much longer.