depression

depression isnt just being sad,

its being colorblind and being told how colorful the world is

depression isnt just being sad,

its drowning while everyone else swims around u

depression isnt just being sad

 

my depression isnt just in the tears u see,

but in the ones u dont

in the fake smile on my face when i say im fine

and in the scars under my sleeve,

and the ones buried deep within my thigh

because depression isnt just being sad

 

depression is living in a body that fights to survive,

with a mind that tries to die

depression is the lonleyness in a room full of people

depression isnt just being sad

 

depression is wearing tracksuits in summer,

and making excuses to not go swimming

depression is isolating myself from everyone,

than complaining that im lonely

depression is pushing the people u need the most away

because depression isnt just being sad