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You are turning into my biggest fear 
Making me feel like I am forcing you into this 
Acting like you can’t wait to get out 
I know it’s a lot to take in
But why then are you keeping my hopes up 
Slowly breaking my heart 
I am holding on for dear life 
Hoping that maybe just maybe 
This is just a dream and I will go back to our paradise 
Say something please, what’s happening 
I keep trying to reach out and you keep making excuses 
Are we now just doing it to mark the register, or 
Are you just trying to find ways to drop a soft punch 
Don’t take your time please it’s killing the little life I have left 
Prove me wrong, I beg 
That this is all in my head and you’re just pulling my leg 
Right, right 
You love me right 
Love at first sight right 
Vibing like old friends right 
A story so perfect right 
So why then are you giving up so easily 
Ghosts of my past are still haunting my present 
To this day I regret being as clear as a glass
They say the  truth heals all wounds  
But how come mine have just been spread open 
Justice at court hasn’t even been served 
Then how come you as the jury don’t understand that I am innocent until proven guilty 
How come you are just taking the consequence of my actions 
Without understanding why I did it 
It hurts 
The only reason why I told you is because I trust you 
So why is that being taken for granted 
I might laugh and just brush it off but I am honestly breaking 
Aching 
Making scenarios in my head driving me to early insanity 
I am close to tears, screaming, at my loudest 
My heart is pounding out of my chest, bleeding 
If murder is what you want, take it out then
To end this beautiful life we had created 
I have been warned to stop loving so hard 
Just give a little bit of yourself, they said 
Leave room for heartbreak, they said 
These things never end well, they said 
But boy oh boy did I not listen 
Because until the last breath, I take I will choose to love with my whole heart 
Even if that’s what kills me and if they ask you who I was 
You will tell them I was the girl who let love lead the way and it ended in tragedy as it was my final destination 
Breath in, breath out 
Breath in, breath out 
Breath in, breath out 
Breath….in 
Breath….out 
Even now know that I will love you still...