Nobody's Daughter

I listen to sad songs

In order to confuse my mind,

For I remind myself not to be happy

For happiness doesn't exist;

Do we live in a world that doesn't care?

For both my parents are dead,

So why shouldn't I be dead?

For I'll be less of a burden...

My greatest revelation is facts

For the roses don't grow all the time

I just want to express myself

Without being judged

And somebody turn off the lights

For I shall disappear

And all the world will never see me, again

My mother was a crackhead

And my father was a deadbeat

I wonder if I am a deadbeat on this earth

Some people say that death is painless

Well I shall die a painless life--

For life is painless when you don't feel anything

Am I supposed to die this very minute

Or am I supposed to die after a long day's fast?

For I've been fasting my whole life

For a love so true,

But when am I going to get my star?

Tomorrow can be any day of the week

And I am skinny to the point of shock

And hopefully I will be skinnier by tomorrow,

For tomorrow my heart-shaped box

Shall rot;

And yes I am hurting

Hurting to the point of no return

My eyes are bloodshot from no sleep

And my dead parents make promises

They can't keep,

For I hear them in my dreams

Screaming at me

They must know that I'm dying too

For I am nobody's daughter, except God's

And he is always there for me, more than ever

So why do I feel this treacherous way?

Well maybe it's because I had shitty people for parents

And none of them gave a crap about me

And I am forced to live this lie;

Why must they lie to me about life?

For life is worth skeletons

And I shall be the next one

Under the grave...

Dear God, will you give me roses at my funeral?

For I trust you more than anybody else;

For you are my only friend in the world

And no one else,

For everybody else betrays me and my peace of mind

Who needs this world anyway?