Body Spasms

You’re lucky to don’t have spasms 
It feels ike your body is about to implode
You’re lucky don’t experience them.
They kick my arse every time until I want to explode

Along beside them, there is an indescribable pain 
My body spasms and locks up into place 
Can’t go on, I can’t through this again 
The terrible pain is written on my pale face 

I had enough of alwful torture
At the time I wish no more and I want to be dead,
to be gone, I feel like I have no future.
Another hard round of tears and spasms, I dread

I want to be swallow up by the universe
I want to die, it doesn’t matter how much I try
This kind of horrid life I don’t deserve 
I just want to say goodbye