ptsd

am I just being dramatic?

it's stupid trying to fight my own brain.

get my out of the past

it won't let go of me

i want to forget everything.

the pills only make the suicidal thoughts go away.

i wish it would make the flashbacks disappear

or at least the anxiety.

maybe the hypervigilance?

i don't want to have to work through my past

to make it go away.

i've lost more than half my life

to a disorder i didn't know i had until last summer.

it pains me

to think how other people

are able to live their lives

while im stuck in the past.