Rainfall

I'm so sick of everyone telling me I'm doing better

Please just let me wallow in my sadness

Give my hopelessness space

Because the more you tell me I'm doing better

The more that voice in my head tells me what I experience is wrong

That I shouldn't feel this way

There is never space for me to just feel bad

It seems to inconvenience people

And I know eventually it will get better

Not everything is always this hard

But please allow me to feel this sorrow

And don't tell me that the sun still shines

I know the clouds occasionally part

But if you tell me the sun shines while rain is pouring down on me

It feels as if I'm not allowed to be soaking wet

But I'm standing in the rain

And I need space to let the water run over me and chill me to the bone

I don't want to get out of the downpour

I've been anticipating it for so long

Please don't try to save me from the rain

I beg of you

Just let me be sad