My Existence

Inner self hates every aspect of life

I’m so tired depressed I don’t know can not deicide

To do something with my disturbing thoughts, by a knife

I hate living, I want to commit suicide

To the someone is inside me, I despise me and my wrong feelings

I want to die to end my silence suffering, that is not a lie

Hate myself, why am I suffering from this dealing

of my fucking ability of being able to cry

Life is slipping away, I want to slit my pale wrists

I am so sorry for my evil thoughts and my actions

To get to heaven I will need a fucking priest

To repent my sins and forgive me and send directions

To forgive me and help me going forward on route

Nobody is guiding me, god you are my last salvation

Enchanted by your angelic magical flute

To get rid of my own shitty creation