Counting Calories

I count the calories

Trying to feel a sense of control

Yet still I binge everyday

Coping with the pain

I’m not committed enough,

Too out of shape

To even get into shape

I eat the pain away

Yet still regret the consequences

Always over calorie count

Not overweight

But it feels like it

All of my friends weigh less

My BMI is normal

But my stomach sticks out

My boobs too big

Thighs too thick

Binge to make the feelings go away

Eating is better than cutting,

They say

But I just want to be skinny