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I stare with hungry eyes at the tiny screen with letters from the person I love the most

“I’m too busy”, “Sorry I was with my friends”, “I have work”

All true, real reasons, for why I wait for hours and hours hoping to receive a response

I respond in seconds but you take hours

Understand

 

You say you’re stressed, you yell, you scream, you ignore

Occasionally

You too see me as the one you love the most

Often

You forget 

To reply, to inform, to arrive, to upkeep, to understand, to realize

You forget to remember

That I’m there

That it’s my first time alive too

I’ve felt broken

Destroyed

Unnecessary

A backup

 

Asked for care, you forget

I make free time to give you

You take my free time and dont even give yours in fucking return

Memories

 

So close we were, before

Time

Love

I had it all

Now I feel like

Routine

Get out of my head

 

I text 

You mute notifications

Complain

I’m wrong

Kill me

I’m someone you keep for entertainment

For fun

To make your day better and then 

Abandon

 

And so I stare, hungrily

At the responses dried than those deserts in Arizona we visited when you truly loved me

Hoping you would fall back in love with me

But somewhere my faith falls back

The longer you take to answer

The more I realize i'm never going back

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