Struggling Without You

In the middle of the freezing night, my tears are falling 
I am alone and cold. I am missing you so much 
Surrounded by your things, it is your name is what I am calling 
But nobody can hear my screams, I am longingly for your special touch 

Your love is still here inside my broken heart. But your presence is slowly fading 
Taking in your last essence between my sobbing in the moonlight 
In the midst of your love, I am all the alone, I will be bathing 
In the darkness, through my tears I can see you without light

Or is it my mean mind playing tricks on me? I am slowly going insane?
Now I am confused by the way you went with the holy angels 
Lord, I can’t live to survive with all this heartbreaking pain 
Bring my love back to me please, I don’t care about your golden bells

 I don’t care about angelic beautiful sounds, where it comes from 
My salted tears just keeps on flowing, curled up on the floor
This house is not a home anymore,. A widow I now have become 
Without you I am struggling to take a breath anymore 

I will never be able to be happy again, because you were my best friend 
Who else can I talk to? Did I not tell you that I love you enough?
I can’t believe that your life has ended, what should I do to mend?
All I see is cold empty blackness, all I know is the road ahead will be rough