i always remember (sh)

as I see myself in the mirror

Nacked and bare

Nothing to cover

Nothings to hide behind

I see the scars

Ranging from red to purple and white

But its not enough

Its never enough

I need more

More scars

More blood

Deeper

And even deeper than before

Not just a few pearls of red spilling out

No

No I need rivers and oceans of red

I need to see the white bone underneath

I need to peel it all of

I need to feel it

I need the pain

So unbearable

To the point where I feel like I am dying

All to just feel alive

All to just to keep myself alive

But for what

Whats even the point

Why not just end it all

oh right thats it

…………….

I remember now…