Where are you my love

This morning I woke up

And I looked for you

Sounds so weird

Because it’s been at least 8 years

And yet I still look for you

Where are you my love

When I want to talk

When I want to cry

My heart still looks for you

I’ve tried running

When you pushed me away

I’ve tried to move on

But in my dreams, I see your face

Where are you, my love

I know you weren’t mine

But somehow you were

And I was yours

But I wasn’t

Both of us were uneasy

About going all in

Both of us untrusting

I didn’t know this was the

beginning of the end

I’ve never wanted to run away from someone so fast

I’ve never wanted to run to someone faster

Where are you, my love

Looking into your eyes I felt so

safe

Protected

Understood

Yet

Looking into your eyes I felt so

Exposed

Confused

Raw

The feeling of drowning in honesty

But your whole being has been set on fire

That’s what you do to me

Where are you, my love

The dreams of the future

I hoped we could’ve had

Playing in my mind each night

Memories of every moment

I swear it makes me mad

Haunting me and reminding me of this sad reality

*laugh*

The reality

it’s Funny really

You let me go

You isolated yourself

You painted a trail of lies because

How dare I be……

I ask why

And you lie

You say this

You say that

You say everything that allows you to walk away

The words that I wish you’d never say

Sometimes I want to text:

baby, please stay….

*pause*

Man I wish you’d stay

*sigh*

So I walk around pretending I’ve moved on

Saying I’m not hurt

Saying that I’m good

And that you were the worst

*sigh*

But we both know that isn’t completely true

That I love you the most

And that my days seem a little blue

I’m missing our fire

I would give anything just to combust

I’m missing you deeply

And with you, I am in love

Where are you, my love…

Come back to me