It's In Me

13LaurenD

This whole time I always felt like I was missing a part of me,

That was preventing me from being who I really wanted to be.

This whole time I was passing along the blame,

And no matter what I did, I would always feel the same.

I so badly wanted to blame everyone else for the way that I would feel,

But I am finally realizing that that is never going to allow me to heal.

I have something inside of me that does not allow me to quit,

And I am finally realizing that things in the past never worked out because they were not the 

right fit. 

This whole time I was not getting what I wanted because there was something better coming 

along the way,

And I am no longer going to feel sorry for myself everyday.

This whole time it never worked out because God was protecting me,

And he was able to notice things that I could not get myself to see.

I was so blind by the way that I wanted it all to end,

And I felt so lost having to go through the same thing over and over again.

Now I realized that it kept happening that way because I was letting it occur,

And now I look back and question what it even was that I was fighting for.

I was giving my all to the wrong people who would never care,

That is why I had to keep questioning why it was never fair.

I was trying to make something happen that was not meant for me,

And for the first time in my life, I feel like I am finally free.

I no longer have to worry about what people think,

And it no longer feels like I am going to sink.

Because I am finally letting go off all of the things that were weighing me down,

And for the last time in my life, I am picking myself up off the ground.

When I get to the other side, I will remember all of those that left me to die,

Because they will not be invited to see me finally touch the sky. 

 

 







  • Author: 13LaurenD (Offline Offline)
  • Published: July 30th, 2024 14:56
  • Category: Unclassified
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  • Users favorite of this poem: Maplespal, Young Fella
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  • Maplespal

    thank you for writing this.
    i am favoriting.

    • 13LaurenD

      Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it!

    • Young Fella

      Gorgeous work. Very powerful lines. Loved it.

      • 13LaurenD

        Thank you so much!

      • sorenbarrett

        A good deal of self reflection in this piece. Well written

      • Mutley Ravishes

        Nothing like turning the attention inwards!
        Now, can I release people from all condemnation? (Very difficult. I caught myself shouting in anger today at a YouTube video! Oh well…)

        • 13LaurenD

          I'm glad you can relate to it! Thank you!



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