dear john

dear john

you’ll never know these words

so it’s okay for me to finally say

that I think of you often

especially as I reflect on my day

I’ve wanted to know you more since day one

I’ve always dreamt about the potential of what we could become

I know it sounds insane

but when I look at you

I see all the possibilities after the rain

if that sounds so impossible to you

then why do you look at me like that too?

Funny how our eyes will tell the truth

I guess it’s just been easier for me to never try

to deny any future of us

and pretend I don’t want you to be in my life

Hold on, while I cover up the undeniable lie

If I could go back

I would’ve definitely introduced myself to you

Give you the first dance at prom

and laughed together by the bowl of juice

If I did…

I wonder where we would be

If I did …

Would you be smiling at this, while you’re sitting next to me?

If I did…

Would we watch our show religiously on Tuesdays?

If I did …

Would we start each morning with prayer, coffee, eggs, and the catch of the bay

There are a lot of what-ifs I would’ve done with you

If only I’d taken a chance and talked to you

So I’ll toast to the possibility of you