Mad Mistakes

I didn't notice it at the moment,

what was I thinking?

The weight has now shifted on the tectonic plate,

im sinking.

the pain of a burden,

of the choice i decided,

is stinging.

the choice that could affect my future is drifting.

what was I thinking?

a chance to fix this is drifting away from me.

the regrets of my mistake,

are sinking into me.

what was I thinking when I thought you hated me?

its a mistake alright...

at the time I couldn't see.

moodshifts and confusion,

through what I wanted to be.

I rejected you, easily, slowly,

but painfully,

i didn't see who I was without you,

and what you've made of me.

what was I thinking,

when I thought you wanted away from me?

when I thought you turned your back on me?

when I thought you hated me?

i was angry you didn't want anything to do with me.

you didn't see how much it affected me.

3 weeks of not seeing your face,

is equivlent to hell,

you not wanting to see me hit me hard and I fell.

i had to climb to get courage,

what a hill.

i couldnt meet you. Oh well.

all the regret I take,

im such an IDIOT the choice I made.

it was all a mistake,

when im with you,

such love I've felt.

please don't harm yourself.

please don't runaway,

if you did,

id runaway with you,

I can't be away from you.

your everything to me.

the love of my life,

like you said..

im sorry.

please accept my request.

the night I said all of that,

i was angry don't you see.

i woke up in the morning hoping it was all a dream,

it hit me like a stack of bricks,

it was real!

i screamed...

please is it to late????

can I got back???

i don't need to make this rhyme to tell you,

what I want to tell you,

Please listen:

You ARE the love of my life...

there is no other,

i don't know what got into me.

i was angry,

i was mad,

Please understand.

i didn't know what I was doing,

until it was done.

i couldn't breathe afterwards.

Please think about my request...

i love you so much,

please don't forget that.

i just felt like...

you were avoiding me.

i wanted to see your face so bad,

and I was angry about the things going on around our house,

That when you ignored what I said,

About meeting you,

I lost it.

it was the biggest mistake of my life.

im sorry...

its to late isn't it?

im sorry..........................    ....