Jokes On Me

Silly me for thinking that you felt the same,

And for believing in love, but I know that I am the only one to blame.

You think I would have learned my lesson by now,

But once again, I am left here wondering 'how?'

How did I read it so wrong once again?

Why did I admit to you that I wanted you in my life as more than just a friend?

As hard as it is to let it go, I can't make the same mistakes that I made in the past,

Because if I didn't tell you the truth, then I know that the feelings I was having for you were going to last.

Thank you for being nice, even though it is going to be hard to let you go,

And as much as it hurts, I think it is best that you let me know.

At least you are not like 'HIM' and you don't want to string me along,

But it also hurts a little to know that I was looking at it all wrong. 

This may be my delusion talking, but I know that you were interested too,

And even if you don't want to admit it, you know that it is true.

I am not someone who wants to get in the middle, but I think I put doubts in your head,

And looking back at our conversation, I can see it in the words that you said. 

I hate to admit it, but I know that I am willing to sit around and wait,

Because I have not learned my lesson in the past, which is something that I hate.

That's what happens when it is easy for you to fall,

Because you are not able to let it go easy, not at all.

I don't want my history to repeat,

But maybe it would have been better if you and me were to never meet.

Because I know you are going to be on my mind until someone else comes into play,

And you are going to be the last thing that I think about at the end of the day.

After being broken for so long, you were the one who helped me start to believe in love again,

But as soon as it started, it all seemed like it just abruptly came to an end.

Like the fool I am, part of me is holding onto hope while the other part of me is upset,

Because I still want to believe that you and I were meant to be together, but maybe not yet.