Torn apart between 2 worlds

I am torn apart between 2 worlds.

One, a world in which I currently reside.

The other is a world in which I wish to reside.

Both of these worlds provide me with abundance love, and happiness.

Only, I do not know what to do.

I am confused and scared.

Perhaps I do not want to choose.

Coz, choosing would mean I would lose one of these worlds forever.

And my heart is not yet ready to accept this stark reality.

I am dearly in love with both of these women.

Is this even possible, I ask?

My heart replies with a "yes."

How did I land in such a situation?

I do not know.

She came like a breath of fresh air.

Completely unannounced.

Mesmerizing me with her beauty and grace.

Her presence made me feel more alive than ever.

And there was nothing I could do but fall in love.

She occupies my vessels, veins, and arteries.

And I want to be with this woman.

I want to love her properly for once.

I feel guilty for not giving her my 100%.

But then again, I do not want to lose the woman

That has supported and stood by me all along.

She is an angel in her own way.

Understanding, kindhearted, and loving.

Maybe I am the luckiest man on this planet right now.

For receiving so much love from both of these women.

I know I don't deserve both actually.

But here I am at a juncture in my life.

Where I have to make a choice.

And I don't want to choose.

I'd rather wish I were dead than make such a decision. 

I am completely torn apart between 2 worlds.