Chasing

Ubiquitous emotion

Anger hate and jealousy

Why you need me

Questioning some broken dream

A moment in eternity

 

Thanks for everything

Show me you’re assiduous

I will do this gracious

Notwithstanding you perceive

There’s nothing quite egregious

 

Think me so perfidious

I accept I empathize

I do not claim perfection on this wise

Try mightily to see

Embark upon this claim with optimism

 

Else in darkness and repose

Be swallowed by rejection

Falsified a gruesome image

Vision of a dream defiled

I just wish these weren’t implied

 

Always you will be my bride

For this life I’m trapped in prison

I’m not trying this to hide

But limits, warnings

Threatening clouds are not to be ignored

 

I’ll try to slow this train before the stop

We can let ourselves down at largo

I hear the cry erupt like screeching brakes from my heart

And if I hear yours clearly

Let’s get somewhere between forte and pianissimo

 

Loud enough to echo

Curse this careless world

Annoy the million voices

And leave us alone to never heal

God knows I meant to

 

I can’t be proud of myself anymore

I would do it if it brought me back to you

But something in this phantom

Taking closer looks, raises my suspicion

Losing my religion

 

Letting go is true

I have no regrets

And with this done that’s fixed

My love remains the same

Somehow I must live with that

 

Will you?

Push on farther?

One more day?

Bleed a bit less easy?

Breathe a bit more freely?

 

Things turned out well

All things considered

We only lost a lifetime

Grabbing to these lifelines

It means this much to get by

 

Change me fate so tense

Time is standing still

Why we take a memory

Crimes be told through history

Can’t unite the sanity goes absent

 

Miss me miss me not

It matters not

Become the best you can

That’s all we can

Pursue in retrospection

 

Offer you deception

Me some loving fool

Not weak enough to reassure you

Nor strong to stay beside you

How I hate to choose the inexcusable

 

Evils should present themselves

Side by side with virtue

Not as twins entailing

Which one has the favour

Neither which should have it

 

Have it

I know I have

I have had it

It’s been up to here

In blood and justice failing

 

Railing anger railing

Sinking ship of sailing

Riders over railing

Buckets ever bailing

Ocean floor be waiting

 

Submechanophobia of life

People vast emotions

Deep depression ever covering

Looming things like bodies from the deep

Ghosts to ever keep and ever weep

 

See darkness and reflection

How it taints

Reason goes on pulling

Tearing gaze away so petrified

To clear some space in mind reviving

 

How I hope you’re listening

Walk beside you steadily

Distant for a lifetime

Ever cheering ever suffering

Thanking every moment we recover

 

May each other be persistent

Grateful for the other in the exile

Only for a while

Make it though these times are hard

Smile often honoring that relation

 

Sweet cessation

Bitter interruption

Bondage in its freest form

Wobegone wobegone

And I will keep you constantly