Repeat to yourself that they're not really gone
Time has proven that fooling yourself into believing a lie Is
the most effective way to deal with things you have no control over.
Keep listening to the mix tapes they made you.
Over analyze every single word you hear.
Was this a sign things were going wrong?
No, no you were the one that cared to hard, not them.
Stay up every single night staring at your phone either attempting to gather up the courage
to turn these demons, these constant reminders of your loneliness into nothing
more than a bad dream.
Or praying just for one second you could feel the warmth of equally returned love.
Go out for coffee four times a week by yourself.
Always bring your notebook, never stop writing.
Leave little tips and thank you notes and watch them smile when you
get into your car.
Talk down on yourself whenever possible.
My life is shit because I deserve it right?
You must've done something really bad its nearly impossible for you to cry now.
Avoid your friends for weeks even though they're the only sense of consistency you have left
in your life.
If they really wanted to see you they'd come but they won't.
Who cares?
Allow yourself to loose interest in the things you love.
Watch as you begin to take a backseat to the world around you, don't fight it.
Become a secondary character in your own motion picture.
But most importantly, drown every single one of your feelings in old stolen rum.
learn to love the taste of it dripping down your throat.
Find comfort in the warmth coming from your stomach, your
drinking bottled love now. You don't need other people
to drive away your loneliness you just need to find a way to talk to it.
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Comments4
The difficulty with commenting on this veritable beauty is which side of the proverbial see-saw is safest to take since both are viable. Being characteristically depressed made your gorgeous rendering of painful reality laughable, not because it is humorous but thanks to the spirit in which you tendered it. Laden with poignancy and excellently rendered, with superb details, thank very much for sharing.
Never stop writing. Graceful and eloquent.
Don't stop writing, please. This makes people feel not so alone. It may seem a selfish thing to say but thank you for expressing so eloquently the complexities of mental flagellation that comes with depression. Just thank you, it meant something.
thank you love
Very emotional write
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