Losing battle

I have never felt so much anger towards one person before

I feel like ripping somebody apart

I'm just sitting and listening to all the comments made about a certain ex

Drives me completely enraged with anger 

When I feel like I'm being downgraded to nothing 

When I'm competing with the past 

The present in worthy of the their attention 

I should just leave 

If I can't hold their attention more than 5 minutes 

I know I must go 

Yet it is hard to leave 

Being treated like you're not worthy of their attention 

Breaks my heart 

Nobody really sees the pain I carry or what is really going on 

Since I'm always wearing a mask

It may not be visible to the human eye

Yet it is still their

The pain of the scars can not be seen

I am tired and I mean really tired

Of all this competition

That I never wanted 

It is driving me crazy

Feeling like I'm always in a losing battle 

Where there is no chance of me winning 

I'm so tired of their past haunting me

Living through the torment being done

The future could be brighter

If they could only get in the present with me

Man do I hate this life 

That they have dragged me into 

Why did I let this happen 

I must be stupid

Since I'm letting this happen 

Their ex can have them 

They won the battle I didn't want to fight 

Now I'm out the door and not looking back

Now it's time for me to let this all go 

Farewell to this losing battle