move on...

"I should put it all behind me, shouldn't I?
But I see her in the back of my mind
All the time"

-Wildflower, Billie Eilish

I'd forgive and forget

If I felt your regret

At least that's what I tell myself every day.

they tell me I can move on

without an apology from you

I should move on they plead and beg me

and I wish I could

but I don't think I can

cause every time I try to I see the younger me

shes in my head

and shes so confused

and I know what you did to her was unfair

which is why I cant let it go

I don't want you to get off free

they say you wouldn't go to jail cause you were young

but I see that little girl

and shes stuck in a prison

a prison you created and trapped her inside

so I cant let it go

until shes free

and I fear she never will be because of you

you clipped her wings

took her hope

all for a minute of your own pleasure

I see her crying in confusion

wondering what she did wrong

and I get angry at you for making her feel this way

she didn't do anything wrong

but she blames herself

and I won't let you get away with crushing her

now that you're older

I hope it all haunts you

the hell she faces every day you don't even know a fraction of

and its not fair

so I cant move on

because all I want is justice for the girl broken on the floor

maybe I'm lying to myself

saying I'd move on if I could

but she didn't deserve all the things you did to her.