Coward

Neilton

Such a long stare to just gaze 

Such lost time to never fight 

I stop and I rewind 

Your seraphic face 

That drives me insane 

But you just gaze 

"What a coward you are" 

" The same as the previous 

And I bet my heart, the next one"

I fear I will die 

And you will still long for my eyes 

I fear we will lose our minds 

And you'll stay stuck to your price

A combination of cowardice and heroism in your smile 

Your smile and your price 

Nothing related to purity 

Or anything kind 

Only yourself and your nest 

Narcissism in your first shelf 

You wear it and 

lordly 

start soliloquies no one ever heard 

"She looks good in those jeans 

Keep her just in need"

Crestfallen I admit 

I close my eyes and I hope

Either you don't exist 

Or come and speak 

I say words I don't believe 

Like:" I hope he dies while he sleeps"

In reality I'm only adrift 

Proof ?The tears on my cheek 

The deceitful smiles

The oppressed lies

The bad habits that came back 

And shuttered my heart 

The bad habits that blackened my light 

And haunted my every night 

Bad habits that bled my whole life dry 

And how I keep them close to me 

I don't tell and I don't shout

I stay calm and carry on with life

They might disappear along with your clouds 

Yet I laugh and spread love 

I'm kind and pray for your soul 

And I carry carefully my broken heart 

Can you learn a bit from that ?

ironic , isn't it?

The aftermath of my decisions 

Of giving a piece of me 

With not one evidential reason

Of

you loving anything about me

What a fool I've been! 

  • Author: Neilton (Offline Offline)
  • Published: October 23rd, 2024 03:56
  • Category: Unclassified
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  • Neville


    Another little masterpiece from your growing portfolio .. I just hope if this is based on fact, you have learnt several very important lessons .. Anyway, keep your chin up regardless & write on .. Neville

    • Neilton

      Thank you so much for your kind words and for your advice!It means a lot !!

    • sorenbarrett

      Since Hamlet I have always loved soliloquies and this is no less. I love writing them as well and haven't done so in a long time. This one I can hear the anger in and it is powerful very nice

      • Neilton

        I advise you to write a few and publish them here ! I would love to read them ! Thank you for your kindness!

      • peto

        Hi pal
        This is a sad but beautifully written piece
        The coward dies 1000 deaths
        You live one life and make it a belter
        "The same as the previous and I bet my heart the next one "
        That line gave me chills
        Stay strong my friend and keep writing

        • Neilton

          Wow! That's actually very true and thank you so so much for sharing your thoughts on this one ! It means a lot to me !!

        • Thomas W Case

          Tremendous work. You will be wiser for the experience.

          • Neilton

            Surely!! Thank you so much!

          • NafisaSB

            what a masterpiece- i hope it's not your own broken heart that is crying to be heard

            • Neilton

              Thank you so much for your kind words!! Unfortunately it Is but time heals everything and thankfully I am in a much better place now !

              • NafisaSB

                stay there for some time, then move on - a better future awaits for sure..take care

                • Neilton

                  You absolutely right! Thank you so much 💓



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