Malpractice

I'm not sick.

I say, clutching my stomach

The same way I have every day since July

The doctors have looked and looked

and I have looked

at the reports that remain unchanged

"Unremarkable, Negative, Normal"

Like Normal is the way I see everyone else fighting for breath above pain

Like Normal is the way I want to cut myself open

and look for myself, take out my Normal insides

because it couldn't hurt worse

but I sit by my phone 

Waiting for the next results 

that will tell me

as they have since July

clutching my stomach

I'm not sick