My Anguish

Maybe my deepest anguish in the world is how I want to be loved so tenderly

With so much love and as much softness as possible

Handled with great care

So in return I can do the same

Maybe everything I’m thinking is insane

It’s unrealistic and just a dream

Maybe my deepest anguish is that of what I don’t need

If I don’t need love then that’s ok but I want it so bittersweetly that it hurts to look it’s way

I crave that intimacy with another

Only I can give myself a love like no other

It’s the anguish of not having it but wanting it so bad

Maybe there’s a lesson in this to be learned

But the lesson isn’t what I crave or yearn

Maybe love will come eventually

And it’ll be a surprise

Maybe I’ll notice that tenderness and look of admiration in someone’s eyes

Maybe my anguish will eventually dissipate and I’ll be ok

But for now love isn’t needed and tenderness can wait

Hopefully losing those feelings and learning patience is key

Then maybe one day my anguish will be replaced with love and everything safe

And when that day comes love won’t be needed because it’ll be received

Tenderness will feel like the warmth that’s been yearned

Intimacy will be in every moment with understanding and care

With admiration for everything that you’ve been through

Anguish will be no more

Taking the weight of the world off of your shoulders

And healing your core

While giving you the love I want to receive just as tenderly

While praying it’s the love that has been craved for