Unsaid

Oh mother, I'm in so much pain, but how should I tell you this? 

Every single time I try to tell you, I don't know why, but you don't seem to understand it the way I want you to.

I can't even explain this feeling that's going on within me. But mother,

how should I tell you that my heart feels so heavy? 

It feels like I can't carry on anymore. I think of my responsibilities, and I'm scared of it.

When I tell you I'm scared, it means I'm in a state of dread, Maa. 

If I won't be able to make you proud and stand on my feet, or if I complain to you about my life when your life is already a mess because of me, will I be called a bad daughter or an ungrateful child?

How should I tell you this, Maa? I feel alone. Even though I'm surrounded by lovable people, I still see no one.

Every single day I try my best, but I've become emotionally unstable, Maa.

I was not like this.

All I want for once is to be with you right now. All I want is to sleep beside you, and I know everything will be alright.

But

If I get another life i would not choose 

Myself to be your daughter again 

For you deserve way better maa .

My heart is filled with fear 

I'm terrified maa I

'm terrified .