When I was
20
I became
involved with
a married woman.
She said that
her husband was
abusive.
She was looking
for a way out
or a break.
She had the
most amazing eyes.
Wild and dark,
like a walnut, on fire.
She smelled like
the earth, sweat,
and wildflowers.
There was something
uncaged about her.
I was young
and naive.
I believed everything
and hoped too much.
The sex was
ferocious.
She taught me a lot.
We broke the
bed and took
bubble baths together.
It was a lavender love.
One day, she came
home with a balloon and
flowers.
She said we are
having a baby.
Those wild
eyes flashed pure joy.
My mom was
worried.
"She has a husband."
My mother was a realist.
She accepted it though,
even bought the woman
some gifts.
It didn't take long for
Amber to show a side
of her, I hadn't seen.
I caught her in some
small lies, and she became
violent when upset.
The affair ended.
She went back to
her husband.
It felt like my heart was
being
ripped out through
my nose.
Pain like a
rotting organ.
I remember talking to
a friend about it on
the phone,
pausing to vomit.
It hurt so
fucking bad.
Her sister called
me a week after
the split.
I asked about the
pregnancy.
It was all a lie.
She had a
hysterectomy a few
years earlier.
I still believe in people,
and hope too much,
and the years have made
me wiser.
I heard much
later that
she died at 40 of
lung cancer.
Those beautiful dark
eyes finally got
some rest.
-
Author:
Thomas W Case (Pseudonym) (
Offline) - Published: December 22nd, 2024 15:38
- Comment from author about the poem: My book, Seedy Town Blues Collected Poems is available on Amazon.com
- Category: Unclassified
- Views: 22
- Users favorite of this poem: Teddy.15
Offline)
Comments7
A sad and touching tale, confirming you should not always believe everything you first see, Sad to read
Thank you. Much appreciated.
You are very welcome
Oh the pain! “It was a lavender love!” What a wonderful phrase. Felt torn apart reading it. I can only imagine the internal damage it has wreaked. Having had been a naive and somewhat gullible young person in human relations as well, this is resonates quite vividly.
Older and wiser, I feel sad for her. I recovered fine. Thank you, my friend.
A very poignant
an heart touching write! 😢
Hauntingly vivid imagery,
awesome presentation
my friend!! 💯
Best regards ✌️ peace Thad
Thanks, Thad.
Quite the story of wild, and naive actions that we all learn from. very nicely written Thomas
Thank you.
What a tragic situation all round. The pain must have been immense for you Thomas. Deception is hell. A sad and painful read.
Thanks, Cassie. I feel that, as a poem, it should have been more lyrical. I went with terse lol
I think you did just fine 😂
What a magnificent look into your younger self. I believe we are all here for a purpose, superb dear Thomas, on the merry-go-round of life and you seem to do it with such passion. 🌹
Thank you, sweetest Teddy.
Emotive words Thomas.
Andy
Thanks.
To be able to comment and rate this poem, you must be registered. Register here or if you are already registered, login here.