Angst

If someone told me to describe

The pesky emotion trapped in my quivering body

Threatening to bubble up and spill

I would simply call it “Angsty Feelings”

They’re like a vice

Gripping your very being

Twisting till all you feel is heightened

Prominent

Terrifying

And yes, I am terrified

Of the actions I make

When it reaches a boiling point

This overwhelming feeling to do something

Sometimes bad

Sometimes good

Sometimes fucking unexplainable

I hate when I feel like this

It comes and goes in waves

Each one stronger than the last

And it takes a shitty amount of restraint

To make my decisions

Not what it wants me to do

Unexpectedly, suddenly, it stopped

And in its place grew weariness

Exhaustion like I’ve never experienced

The need to do nothing

Absolutely nothing

In any case

It’s still my Angst acting up

In a different form

Who am I fucking kidding?

I’ve lived with it my whole life

I’m confident in identifying the unidentifiable

And angsty feelings are the top of it

We teenagers know

Don’t we?