Care

Oh, Hi, I didn’t think I’d see you here,

I mean,

Stood here praying

I think I’m out of touch these days

What the hell am I saying?

Maybe I’ll just drink,

‘Cause who the hell would pray?

I see you, you say:

“Don’t drink the pain away”

Whatever…

Whatever…

I remember,

A day before therapy was status

I would read shit that I barely understood,

But it shot down my hurt,

While I hid

I don’t do Jack shit anymore

But if I did,

I’d be doing it tonight, for sure,

For sure…

For sure…

I can’t help but thinking about how,

My time here’s stood still

Daydream, and scheming,

Fuck! I wanna kill

I move so slow, 

I’m stood mourning

What I didn’t know

Go! Go!

Go… Go…

Numb me! My body go numb!

Numb me! My body go numb!

Drown me! In you, I succumb!

Whatever… Whatever…

There’s this lake that I passed,

On the way to my work

Surrounded by thick grass,

Surrounding earth

My happiest space,

So warm and peaceful,

‘Til at last it was,

Fucking prolific!

They’re watching,

They’re waiting,

‘Til at last I am weak,

Then behind me, they drown me

To weak to bastard speak!

At her eulogy

She can drown in my Hell

They would disown my fucking sense of self,

I am a clown…

Drown my Hell…

Numb me! My body go numb!

To you I bastard succumb!

Numb me! My body go numb!

To you I bastard succumb!

I need you! My body go numb!

I am screaming! My body go numb!

I’m drowning! I’m underwater!

You don’t care…

Whatever…

How the Hell did you get here?

You’re the only one what’s coming

I’ll give you a drag of my cigarette,

Me, you’re shaming

I mean - hey I’m numb

So what if I’m dumb?

She can’t hear me say:

“I’ll fuck ‘til my pain’s away,

I’ll drink ‘til my pain’s away,”

I’m crying now, I should have told her I cared,

I’m crying… I should have told her I cared…