Everything is not fine!

In the quiet of the night  I sit alone  
The weight of the world feels like a stone. 

Smiles around me  but they don’t see  
The shadows that whisper  “You’re not free. ” 

Each day is a mask that I wear so tight  
Hiding the tears that fall out of sight. 

I walk through the crowd  but I feel so small  
A ghost in the daylight  lost in it all. 

Thoughts like a river  they pull me down  
Drowning in silence  I feel like I drown. 

I reach for a hand  but no one can see  
The battle I'm fighting inside of me. 

In dreams  I find peace  a soft  gentle light  
But waking brings sorrow that lingers all night. 

I long for a moment where pain drifts away  
Where hope finds a way to brighten my day. 

But here in my heart  the darkness holds tight  
I search for the dawn  but I’m lost in the night. 

Yet still  I will breathe  though my spirit feels thin  
For even in sorrow  there’s a chance to begin.

and whatever massacare begins

I am in the way