You visited my roof again at night
"My dear boy will I ever escape this plight?"
You haunted my sleep.
So I closed my eyes , pretending to fall deep.
"They can see it now that I slowly fleet".
And in my dreams you were a grown man
with a decisiveness to catch the stars, on my behalf
endowing me with your armipotent heart.
The serenity in one man's eyes
came silently and stole my mind
engulfing me in ardency and pride.
And vowed to an already forgotten welter .
"You can make this life a belter" shouted,
to beguile me into shattering my shelter.
But there were my presentiments in all of your endowments
Marooner's expertise, I "surmised".
And in the nick of time, I woke up - to them aligned.
You stood there, walking straight
pacing flouncy to your next meant - to plunder train
with not one feeling riving your brain.
How can you not feel ashamed?
When there was me counting days, to break free
apace with my fixation about palliating your sins
But there was you leeching off my dismality?
All my eighteen years wizening...
Hoping you were stranded there like me.
Seasoning...
"Why do you steal me only at nights?
And forget to alert me of your words being lies ?
Or that our kindred spirits were an illusion?"
thoughts vowed to forever hide .
"If I ever awakened you would you call it a crime?
And marred it til in ruins and til out of sight?
Pounding your head against walls
to shield your crumbling bones
created by past scars etched in your "soul"?"
Who was I without you, that, I didn't know!
In my flyover places
I couldn't even mouth your outrages.
Chained up, choked with feelings,
thousand yard stares were aiming at ceilings,
seeing visions of your dreamings
woolgathering along with your scheming.
Slowly fleeting, forgetting to breathe in
pretending to fall deep
in my graveyard imbued with your sins.
Musing over deceitful looks
ashamed, I admit
to plunge into a hug, that will never meet peace
This was all true, methinks.
Demons were the ones shrieking
"I'll be seeing you"
at every glance, at every look,
at every single one of your volatile reviews.
Dilly-dallying about my remedies
led me to an everlasting warren.
Barking up the wrong trees
I saw war end,
unbothered .
"Tragedy to die fairly young"
whispered the ferryman.
Shedding tears on my behalf
and ill oaring to reach the riverbank.
Even Hades hovered
while reading my last sonnet .
So for the first time,
he exiled
the one who mismanaged the land of dreams
and abandoned me to the Asphodel fields.
So just like Hercules
I was ferried back to life
This time not as the also-ran
but with my fellow traveller by my side
By the time birds started to warble
I set about my moulting
And I burned all your marble
Deserting all our puzzle - pieces crumpled.
Now that eyes are wide open
The shelf life of my reveries
will be forever rotten
Along with my garland of asphodels.
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Author:
Neilton (
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- Comment from author about the poem: A dream that woke me up in the middle of the night led to this poem ! Trying to get over someone who doesn't deserve you is not for the weak ! In my dreams he was perfect but reality was a real slap in the face and it almost ruined me This poem has a happy ending and I hope one day jt will come true until then I'm stuck seeing him playing with my feelings
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Comments5
What a dream it must have been. The poem seems epic in its proportions and some words I had to look up. A good deal of metaphor and maybe even Jungian archetypes. Well done
This means more than you know !! Thank you so much for your kind words
They are much appreciated!!
Now that is some write, nicely expressed and crafted, confirming the fact in life that not all dreams turn out the way you imagined
That's true !! Thank you so much for your kind words! I'm immensely grateful
You are very welcome
Oh' my word .. what an absolute nightmare .. It's not hard to see why you woke up my very dearest Neilton .. However, I fear that you are not the only one to have been duped and stalked in such a dreadful way .. Sometimes I am made aware of events that might otherwise very easily go unnoticed but which reinforce my contempt for certain members of my own gender and species .. I do love a happy ending tho' and am keeping my fingers crossed that things work out in your favour .. Neville 😎🌻👍
Wow Neville I am so moved by your comment and your kindness! Thank you for taking the time to read the entire poem and comment all that ! It truly helped me and put a big smile on my face .I will be forever grateful I hope the best for you too
Well written,Your poem is a poignant reflection on the complexities of love, the pain of betrayal, and the journey toward self-discovery and empowerment.
Yes exactly!! I'm glad I conveyed that message ! Thank you for your comment,I'm truly grateful
Wonderful. 🌹
Thank you so much!!!
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