Realizing shit

I can’t go on any longer with you

I’m forgetting who I am without you

And  we’re  familiar strangers growing apart not together

with resentment  that you don’t caress me or show interest outside of where it benefits you

And I’m the benefiting factor

But I’m kind and caring by nature

But you indifference has torn my heart apart

Shattered like the pieces of a broken mirror

Never to be put back together the same

I see things differently now

I tolerate you bkuz I am acting with idleness

And i don’t want to wash those fucking dishes or scrub that fucking toilet

U do it

It’s the bare minimum u can do

As much as you have cost me

Not only monetary but

Years wasted of my life  time youth

and money

I care but u don’t care how I feel

You sleep peacefully on my couch while I

Am restless in my bed alone

Aching to be held

Your an a allusion of being here

But you body is present tho mind absent

We might as well speaks two different foreign languages

A the connection

Is not there

Its error

You bringing up archaic records from the past mistakes and chaos

Yet I’m confused if I was so bad

Why did u stay

To use me

Damn

Praying you go away deal with them scraggly ass hoes who ain’t got shit going but a blunt and bottle

Big assess

But small brains

The shits is stupid

And so am I being

Driving me more insane

You tolerate me for what you get from me

I stupidly oblige

I don’t want to be foolish any longer

Baby baby baby no !

Ashanti

I don’t want you I’m just too comfortable and

I fooled myself into thinking that I need you

I gotta get off my lazy ass

And grind

No one is going to save me but myself

That is what I learned from my first hand experiences

I must speak up

I must stand my ground

No love was never there

No love will ever be found

Right now we are just both

In the same book

Due to circumstances

But entirely different chapters

I pray to God he gives me strength and courage to believe in my self again

And my own abilities

I am knowing I have the power within

To take control back of my own life is the win

I may be lonely

It may be hard

The road is rocky the road is steep

But my precious jewels of love

Your bad you didn’t keep it

Hobo-nonsexual be gone forever your ungrateful pathetic and selfish and

The love I had for you doesn’t even live here anymore