not worth the pain, not worth the tears

Honestly I don't even know why I bother expressing myself 

every time I do I end up feeling more and more useless.

No one seems to understand my struggle or my pain

It's as if my words and my tears have all been ignored.

I don't believe life is worth the pain and suffering that engulfs me

I've been told things would change, things would be different.

It's been 4 months at this point

change isn't coming, hopes for salvation will never arrive.

A lonely, empty shell forever hurt, forever forgotten.

I don't even know what to do.

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I hope you're doing well Juan

I thank you for everything

and I’m happy that I met you

be safe.