Coco

I can't stand so much light

There are screams in the water

And the music has sunk

Deep in my chest

Like a bird that won't stop crashing.

There's a woman

A breathing statue

A beautiful shadow

That stares at me with the hunger of a mirror.

Is she looking at me?

Or did I invent her through gritted teeth?

She comes down

As if she were stepping on my skull

As if she were coming down to kill me

Or to kiss me

Or to pull me out of my body

And leave me floating

Like a punctured balloon

Like a small, drugged-up god.

She is death

dressed for a party.

She is love

With soulless eyes.

She is a song

I don't want to stop listening to

But she's breaking my heart

With every beat.

I want to go

But I'm afraid

Of coming back with an empty face

Or not coming back

And not knowing

I left.