I'm over it

well its been a lot

all the pain and emotions

but the lock to my heart has rotted

and I can feel the last drops of your poison

fading from my mind

its a strange feeling now, almost numb

like I crashed my car and just got out the hospital

but sweeter than a plum

because the weight of your memory

isn't dragging me down anymore

its like I've been broken away from a reverie

and now I can finally enjoy the sunset and more

I can finally feel again

I can draw, play piano, and write

and now my heart feels right

not upside down

not turned around

I feel free

I feel like me

I look at the person in the mirror and don't scream

but I'll still take some time to love

not just others, but myself

since I'm so used to loving everyone else

and you're still in my memory

but its more like a bittersweet symphony

no longer like a void in my chest

just something that's there but not quite at rest

does that make sense?

I've been broken, and shattered

I've let my mind walk on a tightrope in the darkness and blood

and I let you break me more in ways that have left me scattered

but then I remember, I was just trying to show the world that even a monster could be loved