One last try

Lost where I am found 

The light at the end of the tunnel seems to blind my eyes 

My lack of self belief gets the best of me

I don't deserve to be here 

I start running back to the dark 

The light continues to strongly hold tight 

But my will for sabotage seems stronger 

And as I look back its bleak 

Why is acceptance so hard for me to comprehend 

I deserve to be here 

But do I really 

After everything that happened 

Do I really deserve the roses and butterflies

My worst critique, she looks at me 

I stare at her in the mirror 

She tries to smile back 

But I hate what I see 

Who am I to be happy,

Who am I 

I am the girl I promised 21 year old me not to be again 

I am giving this one last try