Impurities

In the eyes of others, 

I have sinned.

I've sinned so much, 

I became untrustworthy,

Confidence, 

I didn't receive it.

Support?

Out the window.

People will stop helping, 

Once you have nothing to give.

When being nice, 

You are taken advantage of.

What do I get to deserve this?

being too nice?

I get taken for granted.

I become tired of everything, 

Everyone.

At times, 

I become upset at others.

All because of one simple, 

Ugly thing they do.

Then I realize, 

Everyone is not like that.

Their behavior, 

It's out of my control.

The ugly people, 

Make me want to be an ugly person.

Then I tell myself,

"You're better than that."

And so, 

I rephrase, 

In the eyes of others, 

I have sinned.