i thought loneliness
would disappear
when i found someone to love
but truthfully
it still gnaws at me
sinks its claws into me
snaps its jaws at me
it has not left
for me
loneliness always feels
like a stab
straight through the chest
whenever i get the feeling
of being liked second best
…or worst
and it hurts
whenever i’m left to exist
without the company
i constantly miss
it astounds me
because i’m incredibly introverted
but anything slightly mis-worded
anything that could subtly suggest
you don’t like me best
and i’m a mess
sometimes
it leans into jealousy
and i don’t like that trait in me
so i try to reel it in
but for me
suppressing emotion is a noose
i’ve been trying for years
to get loose
i can’t hate myself
for my fear
because i know
it comes from a need of love
everything
seems to come
from how i want to be loved.
20:37pm - 10/06/25.
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Author:
Chloe Sellers (Pseudonym) (
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Comments4
Reading this, I was almost afraid to comment. Don't take that wrong, I liked it. it was honest and reflects what some of us feel. I think we all have a need to be loved. I also feel we must learn to love ourselves before we can honestly love another. Loneliness sometimes is a result of the wall we build around ourselves. Openness can be difficult to attain if we fear the rejection from others. Trust me, there is no one better than anyone else. We are what we are, and we are all equally afraid. Life isn't easy, but it's all we have. - Phil A.
don’t be afraid to comment! i agree 🙂
i think being able to love ourselves is really important and something i’ve actively worked on for years, and most days it’s achievable for me. but old thoughts and habits still linger and occasionally take the wheel.
thank you for the lovely comment!
Excellent write
thank you!
You're welcome
A recognition of a need for love promoting loneliness and jealousy. Nicely written
thank you!
I can really relate to this, I have spent most of my life feeling lonely even when i was married I felt the same, it is a very hard thing to put your finger on, I agree with what mendedfences said about loving yourself, and I am sure that would help but for me the only time I have not felt lonely is when I was in a relationship were for the first time I felt truly loved, sadly I could not handle being loved and it didn't last, so the heart was alone again, I appreciate it is horses for courses, nicely expressed and written
it’s nice to see someone empathise, makes me feel much more understood. thanks for sharing
You are very welcome
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