lonely

lunarchloedip

i thought loneliness

would disappear

when i found someone to love

but truthfully 

it still gnaws at me

sinks its claws into me

snaps its jaws at me

it has not left 

 

for me

loneliness always feels

like a stab

straight through the chest 

whenever i get the feeling 

of being liked second best

…or worst 

and it hurts

whenever i’m left to exist

without the company

i constantly miss

it astounds me

because i’m incredibly introverted

but anything slightly mis-worded

anything that could subtly suggest

you don’t like me best

and i’m a mess

 

sometimes

it leans into jealousy

and i don’t like that trait in me

so i try to reel it in

but for me

suppressing emotion is a noose

i’ve been trying for years

to get loose

 

i can’t hate myself

for my fear

because i know

it comes from a need of love

 

everything

seems to come

from how i want to be loved. 

 

20:37pm - 10/06/25. 

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  • MendedFences27

    Reading this, I was almost afraid to comment. Don't take that wrong, I liked it. it was honest and reflects what some of us feel. I think we all have a need to be loved. I also feel we must learn to love ourselves before we can honestly love another. Loneliness sometimes is a result of the wall we build around ourselves. Openness can be difficult to attain if we fear the rejection from others. Trust me, there is no one better than anyone else. We are what we are, and we are all equally afraid. Life isn't easy, but it's all we have. - Phil A.

    • lunarchloedip

      don’t be afraid to comment! i agree 🙂

      i think being able to love ourselves is really important and something i’ve actively worked on for years, and most days it’s achievable for me. but old thoughts and habits still linger and occasionally take the wheel.

      thank you for the lovely comment!

    • Tony36

      Excellent write

    • sorenbarrett

      A recognition of a need for love promoting loneliness and jealousy. Nicely written

    • Poetic Licence

      I can really relate to this, I have spent most of my life feeling lonely even when i was married I felt the same, it is a very hard thing to put your finger on, I agree with what mendedfences said about loving yourself, and I am sure that would help but for me the only time I have not felt lonely is when I was in a relationship were for the first time I felt truly loved, sadly I could not handle being loved and it didn't last, so the heart was alone again, I appreciate it is horses for courses, nicely expressed and written

      • lunarchloedip

        it’s nice to see someone empathise, makes me feel much more understood. thanks for sharing

        • Poetic Licence

          You are very welcome



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