Still

I wish I knew what it was to be still 

For this mind to not spin in circles

A Ferris wheel for every negative thought

No big red button to make the ride stop 

And no light for the good to chase 

I want to trust in those who hold my heart 

But my own voice is the loudest I hear 

Constantly telling me I'm not enough

Ever-present despite your steady love

In these moments I don't want to die

I just don't know how to turn myself off

Reassurances never enough in a broken mind

As I look for the crack in your smile 

With every I love you stated