For 10 minutes

They don't know that i stay 

10 minutes before i leave 

and run straight forward to the wind.

I hang on to my bed and I  sleep.

I hit "play"to the sound of our song 

" Robin "

and suddenly 

all my memories of you unfold in front of me.
And like every cinephile 

I watch thoroughly 

every little moment of you and me.

For 10 minutes 

you are still here.

For 10 minutes 

it is just our two ghosts 

ambling around familiar streets,

all our memories unfreeze,

our life together unravels stunningly.

 

Last day of elementary school 

you had come to see me 

play a role like a little fool.

Summer days under your roof

I was waking up a chilly afternoon 

and peering you from the door of my room 

I saw  how you were getting ready 

for your daily walk.

And as you would always do 

In your hands you held your special crook

 

Other times i would find you at the yard,

the sun was drenching your face 

but you didn't mind that 

Between the most beautiful flowers 

you were unconcerned 

by the passing hours.

I'd approach you with a gentle smile 

and with a question 

you've been curtailed of

all your life:

"Hey grandpa,how are ya?"

and you usually complained 

about the aching pain in your back.

But shortly after 

you'd ask me about my life.

We'd talk about everything 

all the time..

I'd tell you about my achievements 

and my future dreams 

and you'd always encourage me 

gently 

to never quit.

In my mind capturing your every word 

like it was the last thing i heard.

A piece of you I'll forever try not to forget

 

So for 10 minutes 

I stay 

and I hit "play" to my faves.

You are still here with me.

We now talk at the kitchen table 

you recount your childhood memories 

like a fable 

all I've ever wanted was to make you feel 

Intepretable.

Passionately you'd narrate

what was like

back in the days,

how business worked 

and how unfairly they sent you away 

"Life was hard back then".

You'd always say , with a thousand yard stare 

At the yard's fence.

 

For 10 minutes 

I even remember 

the little fights you had 

With grandma and I.

You were right most of the time 

but i didn't say anything 

cause i knew you'd both be laughing 

In a while.

After your lunch you'd go to sleep,

me and grandma would wake you up 

to the smell of fresh baked cookies:

"The best ones you've ever made, surely"

You'd always say 

and then 

you'd shake our hands to congratulate.

 

On your name day and like 

every other holiday 

you were the first to greet 

when you waited for us on the sofa seat

asking kindly:"How's life been?"

waiting to tell you what I had achieved.

When it was time to leave 

You were either asleep 

or waited for us at your foregone seat.

I'll never forget and I'll forever recall 

how you held my hand firmly 

and with the kindest eyes you'd tell me:

"Be careful my little girl, the world is evil

don't forget".

You never let go of my hand first,

you held me with love in your warm nest

always staying:" Come visit us often"

and i left in regret.

On the way back to the  house 

engraved in my memory your last whispering words:

"Thank you"

A phrase not often heard 

by your little selfish self.

 

The last goodbye was always you 

so forgive me 

if i find it hard to conceive 

you were the first to leave me.

I'd always greet you first

and say goodbye wishes last 

so 

don't mind me ,but I've always wanted to ask:

"How dare you leave us so fast ?"

 

But at least for 10 minutes 

you unfreeze

and we talk endlessly. 

For 10 minutes 

Heaven pauses 

and brings you to me. 

Life hasn't been the same ever since...

Ever since you crossed God's bridge.

I'll admit some days 

life 

feels like a cage,

as if i was taken,too

and got sent away.

Tears have dried,i can not even feel the pain.

I only hear the hours on the clock

Ticking anxiously 

ever since you've gone.

 

3 months have passed 

I noticed the calendar on the wall.

April 11th, 6 o'clock 

your daughter announced on the phone.

My birdsong eventually lost its feathers 

forcing us all 

to live in the most terrible weathers.

And i could write forever 

about our life together 

wishing miraculously 

I could revive your soul 

that now rests in Heaven.