Now is the time.
Having a Bad day.
Today’s not a good day inside my crazy tormented head.
I spent the night tossing and turning in my unmade bed.
My body and head are reminding me how old i really am.
I feel pain everywhere today, I am an angry broken man
I am regularly irritable and impatient to the central core.
As I trip over the clothes that last night I left on the floor.
My head is full of anger and rage, I feel ready to explode.
The problem is what am I angry about I don't really know.
I won’t open the curtains to see the summer view outside.
I have so much fear and anxiety inside I just need to hide.
Only the negative is allocated space to be reside my head.
Constant growing imaginary thoughts of how to be dead.
I am thinking of things I would not like normally to think.
Try to dissolve my problems with another bottle of drink.
People I am angry with I am now getting the urge to kill.
Even though it’s clear this urge I would never truly fulfil.
I do try things to try to change all my negative thoughts.
Yet when they fail, I am banging my head against a door
I have many nights and days just like this to often before.
The only thing to be certain of, there will be many more.
There are 12 hours to go before the day comes to an end.
When tomorrow comes I know it will be the same again.
Nataiella (2025).
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Tobani / Nataiella (Pseudonym) (
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Thank you for sharing this raw moment of struggle; it takes real courage to put those dark thoughts into words. Remember that every hour you endure is proof of your strength, and you deserve to feel the light waiting just beyond today’s storm. ⛈️🕊️🙏🏻
Thank you for your kind words, means alot and is very much appreciated
Most welcome, friend 🕊️🙏🏻
This poem does show a dark side that we all have from time to time but this one contines dark throughout. It speaks to me of frustration, a feeling of lack of control over ones thoughts and feelings, deterioration and gives a feeling of hopelessness. It shows good rhyme and flow that indicate control in action. Nicely written Nataliella
Thank you for your feedback, very much appreciated, yep hopelessness is about it
You are most welcome Tobani
And so... after days like this.... when the light comes back on it feels soooo good......
Sometimes, thank you for your comment, it is very much appreciated
18 justified lines.
From a poet friend of mine
feeling less than fine
Good write, Nataiellai.
Thank you Jerry a wonderful little ditty, enjoy the rest of your day
Oh, Nataiella, hits a core.... your poem explores the theme of mental anguish, emotional turmoil, and the cyclical nature of depression. The Poet recounts a struggle with anger, irritability, and feelings of hopelessness, grappling with internal conflicts and a sense of despair. That revolves around the poet's daily battles with mental health, characterized by physical pain and emotional distress. The poem captures a sense of isolation and the repetitive nature of such days, suggesting an ongoing struggle without resolution. I hope your day gets better, my friend.
Thank you for your kind words and understanding, enjoy the rest of your day
Nataiella, this is unfiltered pain...laid bare without apology. As it should be. We should not be apologetic for feeling pain (something I need to remind myself). The repetition, the looping dread...it’s all too familiar. I love how are honest you are in the way you name what most people hide. This poem doesn’t ask for answers...just for someone to see. And I do, my friend. Hope that dark day is far behind you but if not, know I and many others are sending you our hug-filled love. 🖤🙏🕯️🐦⬛
Thank you, have a wonderful week
Affective disorders & associated emotionality are write up my alley .. I know and understand where you are coming from .. Hold on to that insight & write on ..
I have no doubt there will be many who will or could very easily relate .. Have a wonderful week too buddy .. Neville
Thank you for your kind feedback, enjoy the rest of your day
How on earth you manage to turn the rendition of an abominable dawn into a humorous perspective on reality is why James Thurber and etc were so popular. There's a subtle glimmer of laughter winking despite the dark and dire atmosphere, akin to a storm whose flashes both are ghastly in their light yet also have a twinkling note of a better morrow. Yes, that inexplicable ire which renders the passage of time in too many as cantankerous, and we're all privy to its influences sooner or later. How I want to put on the kettle for you and offer you a hearty cuppa Barry's to soothe the nameless irritant out of existence! Beautifully rendered with excellent imagery and a haunting poignancy. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you kindly your understanding words mean alot, as they say sometimes when it gets so bad all you can do is laugh, enjoy the rest of your
That's why I'm left either laughing or weeping.
I find you have to mix it up, otherwise it gets to much
Aha.
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